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This post will be different. This post will have meaning. This post will be personal. This post will give me insight into how much I actually do love the art of, well,...writing.
This will be the first post that I've ever double and triple and quadruple checked for quality. I usually come up with a topic, throw in a cheesy title and then write. I never look back at what I wrote. But let's be honest here, if I can't even read it twice, who the hell would want to even read through it once? Maybe I'll get a couple viewers who read the entire post but if I can't hold your attention that long, hopefully you'll skim through it and find some meaning.
Now each and every moment that I "find time" to post on this blog, I always strive for it to be something that someone will actually want to read. Which is of course difficult, but not the most painful task in the world. But nothing in this world is harder than trying to find the medium between talking about something you love and writing about it. Because when we talk, it's completely different than when we write. Writing, kind of, takes away the naturalness of how words sound.
We become robots controlled by punctuation marks and clauses.
I try not to, but I guess I'm too young and I haven't found "my niche". Even though, if I must say so myself, I think I have. I love music and there pretty much isn't more to say than that. There's nothing I could truly do to prove myself as a music junkie. Why would I have to anyway? Is it really a competition? You can go up to almost any person and they will tell you that "music flows through their veins" or they "breathe, eat and sleep music". Which may or may not be true for some. But do you honestly know music. Or are you just a member of the bandwagon? As for myself, I know and love music. It's just something that I've always gravitated towards, both new and old. Ranging from all different genres.
Music guru or junkie? I don't know, whichever one sounds better. That's what you can call me.
This post is something entirely different than anything I've crafted. This is literally every thought flowing from my medulla oblongata (pretty sure that part of the brain doesn't control thoughts, but whatever) at this VERY moment. However, this post does have a purpose in life. It's going to explain why I have a blog, why I'm even doing this and where I hope it lands me...maybe.
Everyday I dream of being friends with my favorite celebrities! Not marrying them, literally just being friends with them.
Weird, I know. I'm about to turn 19 years old and it won't take you long to find plenty of girls my age dropping their panties for Trey Songz, Chris Brown and even Rick Ross (ew). But if you see me, I'm constantly watching videos of Odd Future and Diggy Simmons. Yes Diggy. Now I've met Diggy 5 times..which is great and all but, it's not like I had an actual conversation! We exchanged words and my heart fluttered a little and then that was the end of it. What else? Nothing. Next. I met Left Brain and Mikey G, which was AWESOME but I didn't say anything but "Thank You"! How lame. But when I watch videos of them on YouTube or look through their Tumblr pages, all I think is "Why the hell are you so cool?". The reason I love Odd Future is because they're so real and authentic. Although they're kinda weird, it works for them! Seeing them perform for the first time at Made in America was completely epic. Even one of my friends who hates Odd Future said that was the best show he's ever seen! No matter how "satanic" or "possessed" you believe they are, you have to admit that they're a group of talented, wild and reckless kids!
Let me stop babbling on and on. You guys get it, I love OF and Diggy. Whatever.
Now the real challenge at hand is: how in the world will I get my foot in the door? I have dreams of attending the Grammy's, the VMA's and the BET Awards. Every year they air I sit back and say to myself, "Yea, I;m going to be there next year. Watch me!" And slowly but surely, I'm making my way there. But what's so special about me? How in the world will anyone even notice or CARE about some 18 (almost 19) year old from South Jersey? The answer to this question still isn't definite because I'm still going through the process of "finding myself"..I guess. But what I've come up with so far is that I'm unique because there's just this powerful innate hunger for success thriving inside me. I just know failure isn't an option and success is the only way. Writing is something I'm fairly new at but pretty damn good at if you ask me.
The first draft is never perfect and I've finally realized that.
Who knows, by the time I'm ready to post this, it will be completely different than what I started with. And it will be up to your imagination to fathom what I said originally. My never ending journey to just become a writer for the Source or Complex or Hip Hop Weekly is what keeps me motivated. Heck, it's honestly the only reason why I'm even in college. I'm a freaking Convergence Journalism Major. Do you know how dumb that sounds to most people?! But hey, I'm willing to make it work and one day, a lot of people will know my name.
Whether I go by India Lee or happen to come up with something less Asian and catchy. Out.
